Tuesday, August 18

i am not who i am.........

wad happen 2 me????????

i am nt who i am......

so scare whn facing myself.......

so sad.........

i knew tat sumthing happen......

but how???
wad u wan me 2 do???
how i have 2 handle it????
i duno.......
i dun wish 2 be lik tat........
but it so hurt........

act i gt no mood 2day......
rememner a person tell me.......

'smile ya.... be happy.... not juz laugh means happy.... laugh from deep in the heart........'

ya, i knw d meaning....
but am i????
i duno.......

sumtimes i felt tat y tis lik tis, y tat lik ta....
i knw i cant lik tat.......
but.....

i lost thing whn i grow up.......
at the same time, i learn things frm things........
but i dun wan lost friends as i grow up.........

recently, i felt lik tat........

sorry..........

sorry 4 my stupid thinking...........

sorry 4 my bad emotion.......

sorry 4 d friends all around me.........

sorry 4 d one i might hurt u although i duno i hurt u ady................

sorry tat i am so childish......

sorry tat i am nt thinking positive..........

sorry tat i really lik 2 cry.........

sorry i knw i cant say sorry at all...........

sorry tat i am useless......

sorry i juz wan 2 say out but i duno hw 2 say, whr 2 say, who 2 say to, whn i hav 2 say..........

ya, i need a listener..........

actually, 2day afternoon inside d lecturer hall, i'm crying.......
i felt...........ji mo.........

5 comments:

: : 3m0 XanDer GurL : : said...

aiyo...
i sit v u ony ma..
nonid cry d..
if u dun wan me sit v u just tel me ma..
nonid cry d..

*hav 2 learn d way laughing from ur heart.. just noe d meaning wasnt enuf d..*

seeWei said...

vanness wu de lao po...i m a good LISTENer leh...i m tat 'PERSON' leh..so proud=)
u always hav ME--->leong see wei as ur fren!
rmb tat!

FFM said...

Please... pooh shin don't cry, actually without ur smile,laugh,sometime a cool joke,we cannot survive and no topic can be talk. The day, i sleep in the class, ur laugh awake me n make me active n chatting together with happy stuff.So be happy like a pooh ^_^

Bei said...

do u treat me as a friend?!if yes,how come got anything happened to u i dunnu wan?no matter what happened,just come to me and mutter 2 me la,dun always conceal ur feeling..pls.. see shin..remember,we are friend,ok?friend will always by your side to support u!

xini lim said...

hey gal, thing doesnt go smooth all the time . n tis is the right way 2 voice out neh !!! if not arh later u will get emo leh .. i dun wan to c a emo pooh :p ..
i believe tis is a endure time to let u forget all the unhappiness but trust me u will b better coz v, frineds will b here 4 u anytime, anywhere ( although i am not same skull wif u , but yet u can meet on msn ya ^^)

GAMBATEH neh !!!!